Devious Journal Entry

Hello there people...well im having kind of a bad mode period...all the army stuff are just too much for me,im tired of all the bullshit,im seriously going crazy because of this shit,can't think about other things besides this...it's driving me nuts.
I became so lazy and lost my motivation to look forward,do stuff that i like..and now it seems like i can't do nothing about it..so depressing..

seriously need some help :